I haven’t published anything big in a while. Recently I’ve been asking myself why.
I get it. This past year I have dealt with many adjustments. I met someone, and we embarked on a trip of a lifetime. Wound up completely upending and changing my life.
As I’m settling in my new home and space, I’m very anxious to get back to writing and publishing, and I’ve been struggling with it.
It just so happened that last week my writing coach from back home set up an online gig. She hasn’t offered anything by way of her coaching this past year because she’s had a lot of big and important changes happen in her life too. She lifted her students up to a new level, and now she’s ready to share the next steps. She’s getting back to us.
As per her usual, she guided us through a few writing exercises, and by the end of the hour it dawned on me why I haven’t been into my own writing. I’m changed!
Before, I was writing about my life changing experience, and how I was working so hard to heal. I wrote about healing wounds to feel the joy in life because that’s what I needed.
There’s something to be said for writing from the place of pain, about tapping into your emotional bucket and giving it a voice. I wrote from that bucket a lot, and I was able to release a lot of energy around it all through my writing.
For so long I lived in my heaviness.
The drive across the country, the break, was exactly what I needed to shift my energy. But it wasn’t until last week in that meeting that I realized my shift is complete. I no longer have to write about my tragedy. I am no longer a victim. I am a changed person.
I’m trying to get back into writing. I’m knocking out posts that are just bursts, bursts of information I want to share, and to be present. A few times I’ve jumped on Facebook and said “I’m ready.” “I’m going to write. Stay tuned.” “I’m coming.” Bless your hearts you’re tuning in. But I still havent been producing much, or anything that I feel is great or has transformational value.
What’s my next step?
I do know that I know how to tap into, draw in, and write a good story from my feelings. Now I get to do it from my new perspective. The life Ken & I are creating is so full of love and happiness, comfort, and peace. As I build my love, and create great moments, I will again write and share from my feelings.
Thank You for hanging in with me. I appreciate you.