I learned this morning that I’ve been carrying around a net and capturing energies that move into my field. The bad thing is I’ve been capturing the types of energies I’m trying to move away from, to overcome a pattern I’m trying to break.

I was disappointed to learn that my ethereal body had cast a net. Why would I cast a net when I’m so hell bent on overcoming abuse and trying to change my unwanted patterns and shift my ascension trajectory? I was reminded that everything is a process, and there are many layers to the many lessons associated to my healing and processes. Will and intention aren’t enough, it’s under Divine control.

Sure, I’ve come far. I’m noticing and recognizing the patterns, and beginning to attempt change in my ways. I’m making headway. Great. Then I was triggered again last week, and I was hating that I once again reacted (and not responded). My body keeps score, and I needed help cleaning up this stress. I scheduled a session with my go-to healer.

For a few months now I’ve been exploring the ways I need to hold myself accountable, and having conversations with myself around neglect. What I learned about this net I’ve been carrying around is it’s directly associated with how I negate myself. Yes, we can neglect ourselves. I’m a 51 yo adult who still chooses to ignore poor behaviors from others so as to not create waves and I try to “deal with it.” I explain (justify) everything else that’s going on around it and I’m not realizing I’m holding myself down. Not standing up for myself and using my voice to express against what’s intolerable to me is me neglecting myself. My self dignity, my self preservation, my age, my wisdom gained from experience. I’ve done it enough recently that toxic energies have been attracted to my self-neglect and getting caught up in my net. It wasn’t intentional – I was just trying to hold onto my peace.

I’ve been without peace for so long, and finally experiencing it – that’s what’s brought in all this clarity and exploration to begin with. I’ve been improving upon for myself, and I moved into a good space about it. I guess that’s when the lessons started developing again. It’s Spirit saying, “No honey, I’m sorry. You’re not done yet. You have further to go.” My higher Self is so adamant on me finding the peace and love I deserve that it’s not allowing me to accept even the slightest.

So we got rid of the net, and strengthened my field against such intolerances. Now I am to put into action a plan on how to deal with enrgies – i.e. people – who are not of the same calibur as me. See, after all I’ve suffered through in recent years, I’ve successfully removed myself from them, and got rid of them. But I still have my life to live, and I can’t just keep on the pattern of escaping or removing people. I have to learn to manage what’s around me. And that means I have to manage myself, too. Just like everyone has to manage themselves. I have been attracting energies / people who choose not to manage, but unleash.

Recently I added an image of a great quote to remind myself about this very important lesson I am in the middle of to my phone as wallpaper. It reads: You are not an energy source for people who refuse to do their inner work. I guess looking at that 100 times a day for a few weeks now is helping me to get the message. Now it has new meaning for me.

It’s not just about recognizing and avoiding, it’s about keeping and managing my peace on a whole new scale. I’m on a new playing field. I have to get better – like I said my higher Self is pretty adamant about it. She’s like how much more do you really want to take?! The exclamation point is the point. I don’t want to take anymore, but there’s going to be more. I have a choice in front of me though, and that choice is mine to make. I have been choosing to deal differently, and have been. I’ve done well and come a long way. I’m still living as a human so it’s not something I can get away from. People are always going to be in my life.

Now that I know there was a net in the form of a lesson, I am more aware of how my energy works on my behalf. I’m not self sabotaging, but I invite challenge. That’s how badly I want to overcome the patterns of abuse and neglect.

To protect our energy, some of us practice using a shield.

Coming soon – A shield making workshop.

Lisa Karasek, Conscious Development Practitioner and Intuition Educator.

A five time number 1 best selling Amazon author. An expert Quantum Healer, TRE® Certified Facilitator and Certified Eating Psychology Coach. Lisa is able to update her client’s states of being to assist in healing. Using ancient, multi-dimensional healing and Holistic Metamorphosis® (an angelic energy healing modality), consciousness-based practices, and TRE® (tension and trauma releasing exercises), Lisa powerfully guides her clients to a healthier, happier, more purposeful life. Lisa is dedicated and passionate about helping you work with the dynamics of your self relationship and believes this is the key to most Mind Body Spirit disease and illness.