How shapeshifting equals love

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Until about 3-4ish years ago I was thin. The kind of thin everyone envied and commented on. I was fit, I worked to keep my muscles lean and defined. I had small breasts so there wasn’t a real need for a bra. I was always comfortable in my body, and my clothes. I was a dancer growing up so I spent a lot of time in a dressing room, and it’s how I learned to be body conscious. My body was my temple. And I guess good genes afforded me the freedom to not have to worry. I didn’t have to work hard at being thin, I didn’t have to work at it at all, actually.

“Just wait and see, one day it will all catch up to you” everyone said. But I wasn’t worried. All I needed was a quick glance at the mirror and I knew I was good.

Now, I look down, and I observe closely – I have no choice but to see the thickness that I have become. My always a size 4-6 is now a size 14, at least. I am no longer flat, but round. I fill my clothes, especially my pants, and everything fits uncomfortably tight. I need a bra. I can hold my breasts and make them jiggle. The ONLY way I feel comfortable is in sweats and a baggy, loose top.

I met Ken while my body was shapeshifting; Urgh why couldn’t he have met me when I was hot, and when I felt sexy? Last year we drove across the country and that seemed to give my fat the green light to do as it pleased. When I stand in front of the mirror now and look at myself I turn side to side, and I look at everything. Even if I suck in, the girth of my waist is bigger than I ever imagined I would ever possibly be. I count the rolls in my sides. I feel my fullness in the tub. I lay down naked and I think about what he sees.

He never met the skinny me, so he accepts my body unconditionally. I want to see my body as he sees it. I try to soften in my judgements as I touch and study the new me. I remind myself what I went through, and that subconsciously I was trying to be invisible. I didn’t like my world then.

As I expand and grow, my body is too. There’s more for me to love. There’s more of me to want, and hold on to. All I have to do is agree. I’m learning to love me.

I am a certified eating psychology coach, helping people in their struggles with food and eating, and body image.

Lisa Karasek is a Quantum Healer and Intuitive Practitioner able to powerfully transform your state of being by guiding you to a healthier, happier, and more purposeful life using ancient, multi-dimentional healing modalities, angelic energies, and consciousness based practices. Lisa is passionate and dedicated to helping you work with the dynamics of your Authentic Self Relationship.

February: Love Yourself. What it means to raise your vibration

http://www.GilaNehemia.com

Gila and I became quick friends a few years back when we met through writing and healing. She instantly soothed me with her confidence, and inspired me to become more. 

I’ve lived through some trauma, and sexual wounding is a big part of my work – personally and with clients. 

I’m always pushing others to find their, live their, and be in their authentic selves. And the best way to achieve that is to face and release the uncomfortable parts. Gila agrees. 

The Awakenings Project

The goal of the project is the empowerment of women, girls, and woman indentifying through body positivity and self-actualization. Participants are asked to think of a word that best describes them. From that word, the participants are charged to embody its power through its placement on the body and the subsequent photo.

The result being the mantra of the project,
“Society does not define us, we define ourselves.”

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The image that began it all

The Awakenings Project is coming to Nourishing Journey in Columbia!

Session Times at Nourishing Journey
8975 Guilford Road, Columbia MD

March 10, 2018
10a to 4p

March 11, 2018
10a to 4p

Sessions take approximately 20-25 minutes and no appointment is necessary.  For more information and to join the participant group, please find us on Facebook at The Awakenings Project STL or visit www.theawakeningsprojectstl.com.

Each participant will receive a copy of their print shipped to them

Participation in The Awakenings Project is free, however, should you wish to contribute to this mission, the recommended love donation is $15-20

Eating Psychology

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$20 per person, per class -OR- $15 early registration

Join the class at the Latrobe Park Recreational Center

1627 East Fort Avenue, Baltimore 21230

We will discuss everything you think you know about dieting and weight.

This Workshop is designed to lift the stigma of dieting and how it affects you.